Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Happy Birthday

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Originally uploaded by lil anna
Of course I'm always late but your first birthday back on October 6th was a big success. Everybody had a wonderful time including you.

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

Cute, Cute, Cute

Everyday you are getting cuter and cuter. You've always had a strong personality but it is really shining through now. You still don't like to have any of your body parts forced. This is why I'm pumping breast milk for you. You screamed and screamed at my breast when we tried to force you to it. You also get really mad, especially when you are tired and I try to put your arms into your sleaves when I am dressing you. However, you are starting to help me a bit with it. So the screaming is starting to abate a bit while I'm dressing you. Yesterday and today you also held up your foot when I got a sock ready to put on it. Smarty pants. I'm seeing the wheels just a turning in your head now.

Lately you've taken a major interest in playing with your stuffed animals. Banging blocks together just isn't cutting it anymore for you. You always have to have two stuffed animals though. You never play with just one. Holding each by their hands is how you play and you often like to clap them together. The hand holding started a while ago actually. In the evenings we started bringing you outside to play in your Sesame Street walker. On it there is a baby Big Bird stuffed toy and a baby Cookier Monster. Since the beginning, about June or so, you have always held onto their hands while you are playing there. Or if you aren't holding onto their hands you are holding onto their feet. But it is always hands or feet, you don't mix them up, and hold the foot of one and the hand of the other. No, no.

Friday, June 15, 2007

Catching Up

Time is flying by and you are growing up so fast. Wow this picture is little over a month old and already you have changed so much. Your hair right now is down over your ears. Your hair is really something else. We call you mullet baby, the back of your hair is about 2 to 3 inches long. I hope that it keeps growing and I probably won't cut it. I had short hair as a child and always wanted it to be long so I could wear pony and pig tails. You'll probably want to have short hair though. You are however, very paitient as I comb the bed head out and boy do you get bed head. Your bald spot is finally growing in. You hair would get all dread lock looking in the back from you laying on it and moving your head all over. At first I wasn't so "with it" as a new mom and didn't always get them combed out quick enough so I think that your little dreads fell out thus your bald spot. I'm more on top of it now as I'm getting used to being a mom. Each day as I comb out your dreaded snarls you are quit patient. I hope you are getting used to it because having long hair means a lot of tangles!!

Friday, February 16, 2007

Wednesday, February 7, 2007

That smirk

To this day you still have that look. You are only 19 days old in this picture but really you look like same now at 4 months. It is a cute little smirk. I always think you are asking me what the heck I'm doing when I see it. You are the most alert newborn I have ever seen. Your curiosity for the world around you astounds me. Sometimes you take it all in stride and other times you are screaming at it to make it pay attention to you.
You love meeting new people. It intrigues you to no end. I first found this out when I was out shopping and you were only 7 weeks old. We were on our way home and you were in the car screaming at the top of your lungs because you were hungry and your binky fell out. My plan had been to stop into work so they could all see and meet you. I wasn't going to stop because of your screaming but I did anyways. As soon as you saw everybody you forgot all about your hunger. You just looked at everybody with wide eyed wonder and you even reached out to one woman.
We also went to a Super Bowl Party last week and you loved watching everybody especially the kids. I can tell that you can't wait to get down with them and start playing. You were pretty quiet in front of everybody but boy when I got you alone to change your diaper you chatted up a storm with me and smiled the whole time. I think you were telling me that you were having a good time.

Thursday, February 1, 2007

I love you and I miss you during the day. I was lucky to have gotten to stay home with you from October to January. I knew this during that time and cherished it constantly. I want to stay home and raise you but we can't afford it. I miss you.

Monday, January 29, 2007

Raising Our Own Babies Is Now a Privilege

There are so many things about her that I'm grateful for and I'm lucky that she is who she is but I'm back to work and am miserable. It's not right. I shouldn't have to be a part-time mom and a full time employee. But I guess the choices that I've made to get me here haven't been very wise. Otherwise I'd be home with my baby right now. Note to self: buy lottery tickets. Maybe that choice will pan out for me. I've been thinking a lot lately about our society and how most mothers aren't able to raise their own babies now a days. The Day Care workers and sitters are raising our children for us while we earn the money to pay them to do it. Is it possible that this is part of the reason why our youth are becoming so violent? Is it because we are raising them with a part-time mother's love? The news story last night about girls video taping their girl fights really bothered me. In the analysis of the story the talking heads stated that girls are becoming more violent because they are seeing that they don't have to be nice little girls anymore. They are seeing that they can stand up for themselves. Sure this is part of it but I believe there's more to it than just a shift in acceptable behavior. There is no substitute for a mother's love and if a child is getting that needed love only part time how does it affect them? Are we seeing the results of the career minded feminist movement that started in the 60's and 70's? I was raised by my mother until I went to kindergarten. This was back in the early 70's, 1970-1975 to be exact. There weren't many Day Care Centers around back then and they were expensive. Day Care was a privilege for the well off. Now it is completely the opposite and being able to stay home with your child has become a privilege and Day Care is a whole lot cheaper.
Once again I find myself wishing that I was June Cleaver. She is my idol.